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This Little Pig
21 December
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I am such a cheeseball, it's embarrassing.

Literature is a defense against the attacks of life. It says to life: 'You can't deceive me. I know your habits, foresee and enjoy watching your reactions, and steal your secrets by involving you in cunning obstructions that halt your normal flow.' ... the other defense against things in general is silence as w4e muster strength for a fresh leap forward. but we must impose that silence on ourselves, not have it imposed on us, not even by death. to choose a hardship for ourselves is our only defense against that hardship ... Those who by their very nature can suffer completely, utterly, have an advantage. This is how we can disarm the power of suffering, make it our own creation, our own choice; submit to it. A justification for suicide. -- Cesare Pavese, The Burning Brand Diaries

Lolita, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. Lo-lee-ta:
the tip of the tongue taking a trip of three steps down the palate to tap,
at three, on the teeth. Lo. Lee. Ta.

She was Lo, plain Lo, in the morning, standing four feet ten in one
sock. She was Lola in slacks. She was Dolly at school. She was Dolores on
the dotted line. But in my arms she was always Lolita. -- Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

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